No Fear

No Fear

I have wanted to start writing for years, but have been too afraid.  What could I possibly have to say? I have finally just conceded the fight.  I have something pulling at my heart, and I need to just go with it.  My blog won't be dedicated to one particular subject.  It will be about my life, which is pretty intense at times.  One day I may right about my children, and include something I have written them in their journals.  Another day I might write about my husband, and how he drives me nuts but sometimes sweeps me off my feet.  Other posts might be more somber and express my deep feelings of loss of a friend. 

Certain parts of the post will be particularly confusing for some because I will write about an illness I have call Addisons Disease.  I am on a journey of not letting this disease define me.  Trying to figure out how to live a new normal, and not feel guilty about not being the "old me".  I will write an introductory post about Addisons.  Keep in mind what I experience with Addisons is not always what someone else experiences.  I am not a medical professional, although most of us that have adrenal insufficiency could be with all the research we have to do on our own.  I will probably talk a lot about the ugly word cancer, too.  That God forsaken disease  has weaseled its way into my life (as I am sure you have) more times than I want to count.  Taken loved ones, currently watching loved ones fight that bitch, watched too many young and old have to fight.. 
Now that was a little intro about what I will most likely be writing about.  Here is a little intro about me.  

My name is Crystal, and I am a mom of three.  A 14 year old boy full of all those lovely hormones but who is the most like me.  A six year old boy who is All boy and ALL empathy.  A 4 year old girl who is a ball of fire.  No one is stopping her, and I love this about her.  I have been Married for 14 years, to my husband.  I was a stay at home mom for many years, until I was 31.  I decided to go back to school to become a hairstylist.  It was a passion of mine.  While going to school I became very ill, and was diagnose with an Autoimmune Disease called Addisons Disease.  It made finishing school very difficult, but I did it.  I also went straight into a salon I loved!  I stayed there for two years, and then went on to booth rent.  I eventually had to leave work because of my health.  That is where I am at now with my career.  Maybe someday I will be able to work again, it is my hope. Right now it is not my focus. Wellness is. 

I look forward to this journey of honesty with the world wide web. Putting your heart....your words out there is not an easy thing.  Especially when you believe words are so important, and you keep your heart so guarded.